Lewis Caroll, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland
Lately the negative way I’ve been feeling about people has been too much to bear. It had gotten to the point where I’d been filled up with so much bitterness that I could barely talk to anyone. I lifted my eyes to heaven and asked that this burden be lifted from me. And last night, God brought deliverance, as He always does. This time it was in the form of a simple message: “Life becomes easier when you learn to accept an apology you never got.” I realized that it was my inability to forgive (once again) that was causing me to become bitter. Not everyone apologizes for the wrongs they do to you, but we can choose to move on with our lives and still hope that someday these people will change. And as always, we forgive because we have been forgiven.
My God is an awesome God.
Super grateful for prayer with WT tonight. I remember that PR always said that I was a prayer warrior. I want to live up to that title.
This term has really been very busy for me. It won’t get much easier until the end of March. I have many exams to prepare for and I know that spending time with people will be limited right now. That makes me sad in a way, but I’m trusting God to make things work together for my good. With that having been said, I really feel like this is my season to grow exponentially. I was iMessaging with a friend from America the other day, PA, and he shared with me plenty of verses to think about, all of which were applicable, but one stood out:
“We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.”—2 Corinthians 10:5
How is it even possible to do that (in reference to taking captive every thought and making it obedient to Christ)? At first the question seems daunting, but I know that in Christ all things are possible. I really want to conform my heart and even my most mundane thoughts to Christ. I want to believe my life can change, but in order for that to happen, my heart has to change, and maybe examining my thoughts more often can help that to happen.
What I live by and remember everyday:
“The Lord is all I have; therefore I will put my hope in him.”—Lamentations 3:24
1 Corinthians 10:13 “No temptation has overtaken me that is not common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow me to be tempted beyond what I am able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape.”
—This is so helpful for me and gives me courage to persist even in the midst of troubles; knowing that somehow I will overcome.
Being angry all the time only serves to validate the sources of your strife.
I wonder if that’s true.